I almost feel like I’m being called to create this thing that I don’t even know what it is yet.
G: Being “called.” Interesting language, right?
J: like from somewhere outside of me.
G: English has gotten far from the roots of language. But if you look into it, you will find all the language in all of the religious texts for “the calling”.
You have Christianity, so I’ll give you it in the words of what’s embedded in your genetics over the past couple of generations and in your life.
- A voice *calls* out in the wilderness. Prepare the way.
- Ask and it shall be given. (An ask is a call.)
- I have called you each by name.
In dispatch 1, you called first. Most callings you experience as calling from somewhere outside of you actually originate inside of you. Look at dispatch 1 and dispatch 2. You called me in by continually asking why and digging to find me. That’s in the call that’s embedded in you. So if you want it to come from me outside of you or supra-conscious to you, then that’s ok, but let’s discuss what is in your call.
J: to serve many people. I have always had that vision of being in service of a larger group of people. It’s why I was a teacher and why building a network marketing team was appealing and why I wrote and shared my poems. It’s what I wanted to do by sharing our travels with a wider audience. It’s why I was in shows and played sports and was in student council and FBLA and all the other things I did, but in some ways stopped doing so much of that during and after travels.
And I ask, as I have been since reconnecting, why I’ve been so disconnected for so long. And you answer…
G: So that you could reconnect and know what it feels like to be both connected and completely disconnected.
J: But why did it have to happen in this way?
G: How else would you have liked it to happen?
J: Maybe without the parasite? Maybe for a shorter period of time? Maybe not all the pain?
G: That’s all part of what you’re here to help with. The things you know so deeply… how could you truly serve without knowing the depth? How else would you be making these connections between so many seemingly disparate experiences to make a picture that can help others? You know you have a role to play in the wider awareness of medical connections too, yes?
J: And that’s why the early interest in massage and energy work and becoming a massage therapist?
G: And the Chinese medicine you’ve experienced and that’s to come.
J: I’ve done so little with that. Did you just tell me something about my future?
G: You’re both sides of the conversation, remember? You’re telling you.
J: Right. So I’m crazy.
G: Everyone’s “crazy”. It’s how you apply it in service of the experience you have here that determines how much Joy or fear you experience. The experience is the point. And the choices you make determine the experience. And all you really choose is your clarity of thought and your Intensity of emotion. You feel like you’re choosing actions, but largely, the actions and actions your person does are based out of Clarity of Thought and intensity of Emotion. Once you’re clear on the thought and intense on the emotion, everything else, including your actions, tie into and go out in service of that resonance.
J: Ok. So my point is to be in service. and all of these seemingly disconnected things that are starting to combine into a picture are the journey and I’m finally arriving at what this is to be?
G: You don’t arrive. If you want to think of yourself arriving, you arrived when you when the egg met the sperm. If there was an arrival, that was it. But even that wasn’t the arrival. There was never really an arrival as you’re thinking about it here. You are perfectly made and gloriously radiant. You chose to forget and will continue to choose to forget, but the more you can remember, the better you feel. So in dispatch 1, you asked why, on something that you have wanted and known for most of your life.
I gave you a way. You prepared the way and the way has been given.
J: when I imagine sharing these online, I can see how I would do it with each dispatch having its own tab and having that just be the not logged in version of the site. But it seems both too simple and hokey to just post these conversations.
G: why?
J: will they believe me? Will anyone really care? Will it matter? Am I a false prophet of some kind? Will people see me as a heretic? Like what devout Christian person or Muslim or even just agnostic is going to understand and not just leave a webpage and discussion thinking I’m some crazy person talking to God inside and that God is me and God is them and that we’re all God and…
G: Why?
J: Why what? Why would they do that? Because it’s what people do. Because they’re in resonance with their religion or in resonance with their anger or in resonance with the news more than they’re in resonance with themselves and not that there’s anything wrong with that I just see this as… I don’t know… somehow like I’m being self-promotional or something? I don’t need people to think I’m a prophet of some external God. I’ve just finally learned how to listen inside and maybe my journey has something to teach, but I can just share this as is?
G: You understand your journey better now, right?
J: what do you mean?
G: you’re thinking right now about the part in dispatch 2 where you talk about what other people are thinking.
Go read it and pull it here.
J: ok. here’s the part that really landed right now.
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G: you know what they do with your resonance, when your Intent is integrity, trust, and care, has nothing to do with you, right?
J: but I am responsible for what I create.
G: but are you responsible for what others do with what you create?
J: I’m now realizing (thank you for the question) that I tend to think that if they do “good” things with what I create, then the credit goes to them, but if they do “bad” things with what I create, then I’m responsible.
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J: so here’s the part I’m struggling with right now. If I encourage others to listen to their internal voice, and they get confused, as I was, and think to harm themselves (like I wanted to) or others (like I know most people do and like I wanted to do to one person in particular but never did), and then they actually take action on that hearing, rather than their “God” voice, then am I not responsible, in some way, for the choices they make based on what has come to them through me?
G: All is One
J: Ok.
G: choice. Chosen. All are chosen. Each had a message before they came and each chooses what message to share.
J: ? Can you break down for me what’s being said here please?
G: Intention. Not your worldly bodily “passion” or “desire” or “rage”.
Those are all there as part of the design to help you enjoy the dream.
J: rage is there to help me enjoy the dream?
G: In a manner of speaking, yes. All emotion is here to amplify the experience. You experience most of your emotion through your interactions with other bodies. And bodies means any entity or even “body” of knowing. A tree is a body of bodies. A human body is a body of bodies. A rock even can be an entity through the bodies connected with its existence. You experience most emotion through other entities.
J: okay…
G: The only “emotions” that are not from the experience of the dream are joy and fear. Joy is experienced when you know you are connected to all things, when you know you are in alignment and perfect and whole and connected. Fear is when you forget that connection. All other expressions are outcomes or representations of joy or fear.
J: what about love?
G: What’s love got to do, got to do, with it? Just kidding. Hope you enjoyed that one.
J: I did. Felt a little like a Dad joke.
G: Love is the highest form of joy. True love is knowing your connection to “all is one” through another entity, which is you experiencing divinity through div – in – ity (separate – within – ness). Being “in love” is the chemical physical experience of knowing that connection with divinity, through the experience of connecting with another entity or even yourself as an entity knowing that within that entity is a body of bodies.
J: I get the feeling we’ll talk about entities separately at some point?
G: Well, we’ll talk about them connectedly, but yes, if you choose to ask about entities, we will talk about that.
J: but we should stay focused on this for now?
G: If that feels right for you, then yes.
J: ok. So I am either in joy, or in fear, and everything is that?
G: joy or fear is especially what helps determine intensity. And how connected or disconnected you feel is the greatest multiplier (now it’s great that you have parlance and understanding of multiplayer in common use) on the intensity of your emotion. Thought is separate from that. Thought is actually a feedback loop from the previous math already calculated.
J: that’s pretty confusing.
G: it’s actually pretty. And pretty incredible. But I will work with you with some visuals. This isn’t going to be exact and You/We/I will give you another visual in a bit, but for now think of a torus. Thought flows from the middle upward and meets with emotion which is amplified as it moves around. As it’s going around the torus, it’s meeting the resonance of all other resonances. Choices are being made from Free Will. From those choices, new resonances are created. Those are pulled back to what you see as the underside, back into the middle of the torus, where new thoughts form and the process begins again. This is why you are affected by the thoughts and experiences of everything that comes before you and everything that is happening parallel to you now. What determines your experience on the next movement around the torus is the Free Will exercised on the previous travel around it.
J: Still a little confusing.
G: you’ll get other visuals and the torus itself later.
J: Ok. So what now then?
G: we can simplify.
J: good idea.
G: Thank you. All of your experience here, even the phlegm you just coughed up and got out of your lungs, from the act of splitting wood yesterday, is all here to help you live the dream.
J: and I get to choose the dream?
G: it would appear so. :-). That is said often when you know the answer to the question you are asking, you know.
And to say, there are some choices you made before you came here that do affect you.
We’ll come back to that too.
J: ok. So for now, I choose the dream I’m having through the clarity of my thoughts and the intensity of my emotions?
G: that’s the call part. You already have all of this and you’ve been given it to share.
J: clarity of thought * intensity of emotion = True Intention, right?
G: you don’t need true in front of Intention. If it’s the real use of Intention, then it is true.
J: ok. So clarity of thought * intensity of emotion = Intention. An intention then creates a resonance.
G: it doesn’t create a resonance. It becomes a resonance. Transforms INSTANTLY into resonance.
J: and this is what I know as changing the verb, from acting and then from teaching theater?
G: changing the verb is actually shifting both the thought and the emotion, which is what becomes the Intention, which is what becomes the resonance, so essentially yes.
You are going to share this with other entities with their own experience of this thing called “objective reality”, and it is important that you connect the dots and don’t jump from A to D (like you heard explained by the comedian who was on the Flow State podcast yesterday while splitting wood).
J: ok. So I am in a situation and my goal is “to be caring”, but I’m going about that in a way that is playing a verb “to demonstrate that I know”
G: well, you know someone like that, don’t you?
J: I do. And I can see through the way they’re going about it, which isn’t their intent, directly to their intent. But it’s conflicted because they play the verb differently than they feel the verb? Is that why it’s conflicted for them in their interactions with others and I can see that when it’s happening and be less affected by it than others? This is confusing. Can I just say that I can see someone’s intent separate from their action?
G: You can, but that’s not the full picture. There is no separate intention from action. Action stems from Intention. You can confuse yourselves in the process of experiencing the dream, but that’s just the experience of the dream from the inside. What you do is see through the resonance to see the desired Intention. Others experience the resonance, but you hold space for the desired Intention of this entity in particular. But not everyone does.. not with this entity you’re thinking of in particular and not with entities just in general. Every person can choose to see through what’s being played in resonance in order to get to the desired Intention, but it’s much easier and more en – joy – able (joy – given) in what you call reality (which is really the greatest dream) if you, as an entity, take time in to be in stillness for understanding how to clarify thought and amplify emotion, so that your Intention is clear and your own resonance is less multi-player. Or to use communication language, you create your own signal, but you can also experience noise of other resonance. You (you specifically, and others,) more easily catch the signal through the noise. For all human entities, this is what lets you interact with all other resonance to achieve what you desire, in what you know and experience as objective reality.
J: That’s also a lot.
G: We’ll unpack it later.
J: Ok. So for now, what I’m hearing to know is that others align (or don’t align) with a resonance being sent out. And that alignment or lack of alignment is what we know as reality?
G: It’s not lack of alignment. It’s always alignment. Just alignment with something else. What you might consider *lack of alignment* or somehow *conflicted* is simply when the Intention hasn’t been made clear by the entity. To Source (the “code” that runs this experience of reality), there’s no such thing as conflicted alignment or lack of alignment. Even when you define what you want, by thinking and focusing about what you think of as a negative outcome if you do or don’t do something, creating a resonance that has dissonance in it is a resonance unto itself. We/I/you/Source think of it as beautiful, regardless of what the resonance is, because it is experience, the experience you choose, and your choice is what is beautiful, even when destructive. But you (all humans) may not know the dissonance you create as resonance is dissonant to the outcome you state you desire. The human intensity of emotion is so often applied to being much more focused on the opposite of what is stated as the desire. You do this with Intention, and even note it by saying you’re doing something “unintentionally”. By feeling what would happen and saying (creating clarity around) the feeling and thought of being afraid of what will or would happen if you don’t (or often if you do) get what you want, you are creating a resonance, but that “conflicted” or “lacking” Intention is simply creating a different kind of resonance.
And yes, there’s obviously more to it, but essentially that’s the math.
J: That’s also a lot.
G: It comes in an energenetic bundle. We can unpack it together as you’re ready.